So I actually get the day off from baby-sitting and I'm sick!  I'm so very glad that I don't have other kids today, but I sure would have liked to have a day to have fun with just my kids.  I had kids every day last week, including Sunday, and  I miss doing something with just them.  They are doing pretty good though, they've been helping mommy out a lot.  I love them so much! 

 Iolly has been a little clingy, but I know that's because he didn't get very good sleep last night I feel responsible for it.  He still sleeps with me and Chet, the boy's room is closed down cause we attempted to paint it like a month ago and some how it managed to turn into a storage room!  Anyhoo,  I slept in the middle last night, so he slept on the outer part.  But we have a king size bed, so I figured he would be ok, he was in my arms in the middle of the bed.  But during the night he rolled all the way off the bed!  He was scared by it and refused to go back on the bed, we tried rocking him to sleep and walking around, but if we tried to lay with him he would cry and yell no, no, up!  Chet finally decided to try sleeping on the floor with him and that worked, he went right to sleep!!  That made it a long night for us and we had to get up early.  So I am just exhausted and still have a sinus headache, but hopefully we can go and get medicine for that soon.  Chet just got home early today, so that'll be good for me.  Iolly's sleeping and hopefully I can join him too!

BURSTING WITH JOY!!!!

I am so happy right now, nothing can bring me down today!  I have just reconnected with one of my most dearest friends!  Freshta Ahmadi, I have missed her so very much!  I was so sad when I lost contact with her over 4 years ago and have been searching for her since.  I guess she has been searching for me and signed on facebook just to see if I was on there.  I decided to do a search for her today using the facebook search and I found her!  I was so shocked and excited, and over joyed!  I can't believe it!  I love the internet and being able to use it for such a great cause!  Hopefully we can stay connected now and get to know each others families.  I've missed her and her family so much, they were like family to me.  When she moved away, I was so sad!  Thank you facebook for helping me find one of my best friends!  I am just so happy!!!!  YEAH, WOOHOO!!!  :)

Scripture for the day:

Alma 26:27~Now when our hearts were depressed, and we were about to turn back, behold, the Lord comforted us, and said; Go amongst thy brethren, the Lamanites, and bear with patience thine afflictions, and I will give unto you success.

A Bad Day?

So, I'm having a bad day today.  I just recently started watching 2 more kids, they are the youngest yet (oldest one is almost 2 and the youngest is 9 months).  It's a challenge having a little baby in the house again.  I've forgotten how much time they need and how needy they are.  I really enjoy having her, just not use to it.  So while trying to get use to a baby again, I'm also trying to figure out my schedule to take care of 10-12 kids.  I'm a wreck lately and I don't know if I'm really up to it like I thought.  I've been so stressed the last couple of days.  I've also been dealing with allergies, they've been kicking my butt since I've moved back to Pocatello, I hate it!  As most already now, we've also been trying for another baby since our miscarriage and I really thought that this month we did it, but negative again.  so I've been dealing with those feelings as well.  I've got so much going on that I feel like my world is collapsing around me.  I'm not as patient and tolerant with the kids as I know I should be.  Who am I anymore?  I really don't know.  

I love being able to stay at home with my kids and being with them.  I really love that I get to watch my nieces and nephews, and cousins, too.  I'm grateful to be able to provide this service to my family.  But can I do it?  Am I really able and up to the challenge?  I want to be, with all my heart I want to be.

One of my biggest problems is praying and scripture reading.  When I do these things, I LOVE who I am!  But when I slip and stop doing those things, I become lost.  That's were I am now, lost!  I know what I need to do, it is so clear now.  

Prayer and scriptures are a daily struggle for me, I don't know why, but they are.  I love the gospel with all my heart, I know that I'm suppose to be doing them, but I just keep getting caught up with other stuff.  I need to make it mandatory for me to do these things, I need them everyday.  I know that I also need to get to the Temple soon, Chet and I have been bad about that lately.  We NEED to make a goal to go there and just do it, so that's what I'm going to tell Chet tonight.  We need this so much, I know that it'll help both of us out.  Why is it so hard to do the things you want to do, but it's so easy to do the things that you don't want to do?  

I know that I did some venting on here, but I did some discovering too.  Thank you for hearing/reading me out, but now I know what I need to do.  Now, to get my scriptures out...........

Here are a few pictures from our trip to Utah Last Weekend!

Scripture for the day:

Mosiah 2:17~And behold, I tell you these thinhgs that ye may learn wisdom; that ye may learn that  when ye are in the service of your fellow beings ye are only in the servive of your God.

*Chet is such a great example to me with service!  He's always helping my family out when they need it and he's always trying to help me out too.  Thank you Chet for being such a great example to me, I love you so much!

Our animals!

Ok, so I'm still trying to figure out how to put pictures on here, I have no clue on how to do it with them looking all nice and stuff.  Anyhoo, these are our animals and we love having them, well, for the most part anyways!  ;)

The top three are our cats:  Sarafina, Fat Elmo, and Sneezy Tim.

Sarafina was givin to me for my Mother's Day last year, but I think that Ezzy has adopted her from me.  We had Fat Elmo before we moved to Poky, but becasue we had to move and we didn't now where we were going to be living we took him to four paws in Rexburg.  They took care of him while we found a place and settled.  When we went to go get him back they offered us another cat and we accepted.  We chose Sneezy Tim because he had such a sad story!  He had been adopted out 3 times and returned 3 times.  He sneezes all the time, so I guess the people who adopted him did not like that about him and took him back.  That is just sad!  So we brought him home and love him very much!  He's probably the most lovable of the cats!

Then there's Beth, short for Bethlehem, our dog.  This was my birthday present last year.  While I was trying to pick out her name, Oh Little Town of Behtlehem cam on the radio.  so I decided Bethlehem and Beth for short.  She's a great dog.  Sure she chews everything in sight, but other then that she is awesome!  She had several opportunities to run away from home because of doors not being shut and her being left out, but she never has.  I love having a dog!

Under Beth is our baby girl chinchilla, Olivia, she's much bigger now, I just don't have any updated pics yet. She a crazy little chinny, she loves to jump all around and causes a lot of racket!  

Then there's Snow White, or beloved white rat.  We posed her as a flower last year for a costume contest for a local pet shop and she won second place, that was so fun! She was a crazy rat t oo.  She always made us laugh.  She would zipp down her cage in a flash and then she would run zip back up it.  She also loved to hang from the top of the cage upside down!  She was so crazy!  She's no longer with us and we miss her much!  

Then we have mommy and daddy chinnies, Jordoni and Shercha.  They were a witch and pirate last year.  Our daddy chinny got really sick and passed away just before baby girl was born, we miss him so much too, he was the most lovable chinny ever!

And then there's Thumbilina or Lina, our guinea pig.  She's the newest addition to our growing family!  We love having her around!  Oh ya, we've  only had her for 3 weeks and we have a feeling that she might be pregnant!  Fun, fun!!!  :)

Random pics of Ezzy!

Random pics of Cian!

Random pics of Iolly! :)