Emotional Laundry

So I am sitting here trying to fold laundry and not getting overly emotional, I am folding maternity clothes that I am passing on to my little sister that is due in December. I have gotten over the fact that she's due, and thankfully everything is looking great for her too. However, I just found out the other night that my other little sister is due too. She is a single mommy and already having trouble raising her two girls that she does have (she can do this though, I know that). I am a little jealous of her, I would be lying if I said I wasn't. I want a baby so bad, it hurts at times. Having two miscarriages in a row is painful and it makes me scared to try again, but I will, someday. But right now we need to pay off our debt, the medical bills, they seem never ending right now.
Anyways, as I am folding the maternity clothes I just keep thinking how I should be wearing them right now and getting ready for my own addition, shouldn't I be over this already??? I just want to cry about it, I did actually and then I prayed. I prayed for help to get through this again and then for my sisters' pregnancies. I have found my peace, I have, but I guess I am just having an off day and need to vent or something, but no one is around, just my sleeping little boys and even if they weren't sleeping, they are not the ones I want to vent too. lol Blogging about my feelings have helped me out, so that's what I am doing.
Sorry to those who do not want to read this, but this my blog. :)

Chet's accident and another crazy kid day! :(

So this morning I got a call from Chet and found out that he had been in a accident with his four wheeler at work! He scared me when he was telling me about it, thinking about the possibility of what could have happened.
When he is in Blackfoot reading meters, he needs to use a four wheeler to get to most of the pumps there. I guess he had to ride the four wheeler along a canal to get to the pump he needed to read. He hit a bump and that caused him to go into the canal, instead of trying to fight it he went with it, smart decision! if he would have tried to go up the canal, he more and likely would have flipped it and gotten hurt or worse, but let's not think about that shall we.
Anyways, he got completely soaked, but nothing more than that. His phone was ruined somehow, not exactly sure if it was water damage or maybe washed away, I'll find out about that one later. Anyways, his ipod got soaked too and therefor is no longer in working condition, I will try to be sad with that one, but honestly, that thing drives me nuts!!! haha He is always on it! You now how some people are with their texting, ignoring everyone around them cause they are too busy texting, well that's my hubby on the ipod! So I will not miss that at all! I know Chet will though, so I will figure a way to replace it, not too soon though! lol
I am glad that nothing happened to him though, that was a little too close for comfort! He was pretty shaken up from it, but decided to keep working. He is such a dedicated employee, too dedicated at times, but I guess that's not such a bad thing. He was suppose to come home early today cause we had some plans, but since that happened, he won't be home early, kind of a bummer deal I think.
On top of receiving the news about Chet's accident, my kids have decided to be monsters again. I really don't know what their deal is lately, but the last three days have been horrible. They just don't think they need to listen, hopefully they can get back to their normal selves soon, I am running out of patience with them, particularly the boys. Cian waits for me to leave the room and then does something that he knows he is not suppose to do (jumping off of the couch to try and grab the string(s) from the ceiling fan, pushing or hitting his little brother or taking his toys away, etc.) While I was trying to catch him (he ran from me) to put him into time out, i managed to injure my foot too, so I was not a happy momma at the moment. He has just been on one for the last few days, I really don't know what to do with him at times. He is just a very high spirited little boy and just when I think I am getting the hang of dealing with him, something like this happens. I love him to death, but he is one little boy that is hard to raise. You know what is so weird about him though? I clash with him so much at times, yet he is the BIGGEST Momma's boy, I don't get that. Sometimes I feel like he should not like me because of all of our clashing, but I am so grateful that he can love me so much still! He is MY monster boy and I love him!
Iolly, well he is at the age of testing limits too. Today he got a prize for going poopoo in the toilet, it was a water toy. I let him have a bath so that he could play with it, well a little bit later he decided he wanted to take a bath again, I told him no. So what did he do? He went into the bathroom and used toilet water instead! YUCK!!!!!!!! Luckily Ezra saw him and I was able to get it from him before he sprayed anything or anyone with it. Crazy kid, hopefully he won't do that again.
Ezra hasn't been as bad, but her listening skills could be better. I think summer time is becoming boring and we just need school to start again, that's what I'm a thinking.
Anyways, I was telling Cassie (my sister) about my day and how my nerves were kind of shot, so she took my boys for me for a while. Ezzy wanted to stay home and be with me. So I am grateful for this little sanity break. I am hoping that I can rejuvenate myself and be in better spirits when my boys come back. I love them so very much, but I am glad they are gone right now, I so needed this break.

UGH! What a night!

Why is it that on some days the kids are great and then they have days were they don't think they need to listen to anything! Today is one of those days, and it's not just been my kids, it's been all of them! It's like contagious or something, they have literally driven me bonkers!!!
This morning it started off great. We went to the kid's tee-ball game and then came home for lunch, what sweet kids I had at the time. Then they all laid down for a nap/rest and after that, they turned into demons!!! What the heck is up with that??? Aren't they suppose to be nicer after rest/nap time? What happened here?
So tonight has not been a good night since then, every time I turn around, more bickering and craziness! I thought that when Chet got home I could have a nice break and get some sanity back, but did I? NOPE!!! My mood was contagious to him! lol
I then tried to talk to him about it, but that didn't work out either (I think I turned into a bear by then, maybe a monster is more accurate). So I ended up disappearing into the other room and just let him take over, forget it I said.
When I came back out, he was trying to cook dinner and taking care of 5 little monsters, he tried to let them play the wii in hopes of them being good, but ya, that did not work either. So that had to be put up and everyone went to time out till dinner was done, enough is enough right???
After dinner, straight to bed for the little monsters! But even in bed they are fighting, I am sitting here typing this and ignoring their cries, being a bad mommy. Where's Chet you ask??? He gets to leave and go do homework, where's my break? Oh ya, I had one when I disappeared into the room for a half hour, that's it.
On days like this I ask myself why I watch so many kiddoes and why I fantasize about having more, am I really that crazy? Ya, I am.
Thankfully these kind of days are rare, cause I really do love my kids, I really do like watching my nieces and nephews, and I really do want more kids, just not today. Today I just want to be alone and enjoy some nice, quiet time ALONE!
But that's not going to happen, so I will go check on the kids and make sure they are still alive and then pop in a movie and attempt to watch that, wish me luck! :)

Been far too long!

It has been forever since I've posted and really, there is no good excuse why. I think about it all the time, just don't get to it for one reason or another.
Chet and I are always joking about moving away from Pocatello, hopefully back to Rexburg one day. My health seems to have declined since moving here, I have allergies here, I had none the entire time I was in Rexburg. I've had pneumonia, bronchitis, sinus infections every time I turn around, and two miscarriages the two years I've been here. It's gotta be something here right???
Just this weekend I had to go to the Immediate Care twice and then to the hospital, it was no fun! The first time I went, I didn't take good x-rays cause I couldn't breath too well, so they thought that maybe I had pneumonia and treated me with that. Well Monday morning my chest started to hurt a lot more and I had even more problems with my breathing, so I had to go in again. They took other x-rays and decided to have me go to the hospital. My x-rays were good, but my lungs sounded horrible. So they sent me to the hospital to check for a blood clot, that scared me! To check for a blood clot they have to do a CT scan, that was the weirdest thing ever. They have to put an IV in you, a large one I might add, and put some sort of clear fluid into you. It was the weirdest sensation ever! You get a metallic taste in your mouth and it makes you feel wet all over, literally! It reminded me of the guy on x-men that turns into water, that's what it felt like to me. I felt like warm water was seeping through me, crazy huh?!
Anyways, the test came back negative, no blood clot!! Yeah and no pneumonia either. But I do have bronchial bronchitis, so I am getting treated for that.
I actually feel a bit better today, except for the nasty side affects from the medicine that has actually made me really sick to my stomach! And then my arms hurt a lot too, they had to poke me 3 times before getting the IV in, I seriously cried, it hurt so bad! (yes, I am a baby with needles) So I have bruises on both arms now, not fun.
That was my holiday weekend, fun stuff huh?


Here is something else that I forgot to post about and I feel really bad about it too, anyways here it is:

My little Rolly-Polly-Iolly is officially 3 now!!! His birthday was last Wednesday, I can't believe how big he is now!
* Hopefully I can do pictures soon and hopefully I can be a better blogger!