Chet and I needed to get some shopping done so we took the kiddoes to Taco Bell for dinner, best cheap place to go when you've got 7 mouths to feed. I love their new cheap menus, they rock!!! Anyways, I got the 5 layered burrito for the kiddoes to share (one of those babies can feed two kids). This was Cian's favorite a little while ago, but tonight he wasn't eating it. When I got after him about doing so, he says: "Excuse me Mom, but I don't like this!" Chet and I could not help but laugh!!! lol It was great, he was just so serious when he said it!!! :)
*Chet and I was able to feed everyone for only $10!!! Thank you Taco Bell!!! :)
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Shopping with 5 kiddoes!!!
I don't know why, but I love to shop with a bunch of kids!! My cousin called and asked me to watch her kids, she had no one else available. So I said yes, even thought I knew that we were going to be doing some shopping tonight (her kids are 1 and 2). But the thought of having more kids to take excited me!!! I'm not sure why, but to me it's seems like a fun challenge! I don't like to have uncontrollable kiddoes when I go anywhere, it's embarrassing! I want them to behave and I have to admit, they do! Chet and I have tried different methods and finally found one that works for our kiddoes. Shopping is now fun to do with kids and when I get to add more, it adds more excitement to me, weird huh? lol
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Kiddie Play
Well my kiddoes are very creative, imaginative, and even some times gross with their play. Today the kiddoes were playing well together while I watched a show. Well I overheard Cian ask, "Iolly, did you go poop, huh baby?" And then Iolly replies, "Ya, I poop." and then I noticed that his hands were down the back of his diaper!!! I freaked out and was like "No! Iolly don't do that!" I then go to grab him so that hopefully he didn't make a mess, but he then pulled his hands out and had a toy car in one hand, laughed and said "My poop!" and laughed some more, along with Cian. I then told them that that was inappropriate play and we don't pretend to EVER play with poop! Please tell me that my kiddoes are not the only ones that do gross play, please!!!
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A little while ago a had a teacher conference with Ezzy's teacher to find out that she was not doing too well in school and that she might have to repeat kindergarten. I don't have a problem with her repeating if necessary, but I have a HUGE problem with the school system. I guess that her teacher noticed that she was falling behind in December because of her speech problem. When she was tested with her speech, she passed, even though her teacher and I both agree that she needed the extra help. But since she passed the test she doesn't get any. So her speech problem has made her fall behind. Anyways, they noticed it in December like I said, but I didn't know about it till March, when we had our teacher conference! So I was really surprised to hear that she was so far behind that they are considering keeping her back. The first conference she was doing excellent and even ahead of her class, so I was very shocked by the news. If her speech was affecting her that much and for that long, why on earth did they not notify me so that I could do more with her??? Her teacher then told me that since there was only 2 months of school left that there wasn't enough time to correct it, that upset me even more! They have this program called, No Child Left Behind, what happened to Ezzy though? To me, she was left behind!
So I took Ezzy to dinner one night so that it was just the two of us and told her what was going on and that she might have to go to kindergarten again next year. Her response saddened me: "That's ok Mommy, the kids at school can't understand me and always say, what, huh, I can't understand you." Isn't that just so sad? I think so. She knows she has a problem and we have been working very hard since then. I also talked to my Aunt Marcia who is a speech therapist and she came to my house this last Monday to test Ezzy herself and see what I could do to help out more. Well before she showed up I did homework with Ezzy and she did amazing!!! I was so impressed with her! When Marcia did her test I told her the improvements I have seen in her and Marcia also noticed that Ezzy was aware of her mistakes and tried to correct herself, she was impressed with that cause I guess a lot of kindergartners do not do that. When she was done she told me what she felt she needed to work on and that she would bring homework for Ezzy to do at home. Ezzy has been making some improvements and I am very proud of her. I just also found out that the school cannot hold your child back if you do not want them too, so I am going to look into that. I really feel that she is capable of going into the first grade, especially now that we are both working on her problem and she is showing difinite improvement. If we continue during the summer time, then I am sure she will be mostly caught up, if not more.
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When my aunt was here to test Ezzy, I asked her to test Iolly too. He has a speech problem like Ezzy. I was hoping that since he spent more time with Cian that he would pick up Cians speech (Cian is very articulate and loves to use big words), but it did not happen. I have such a hard time understanding what Iolly is asking or saying and he gets really frustrated with that. So he has actually started to talk using his hands, kind of like sign language, but his own way. It's nice because I understand more of what he is wanting, but at the same time he isn't trying to talk and learn words, he is showing me. So that has really concerned me.
So when Marcia tested him, she could hardly understand a word he said and also noticed him using his hands to describe what the word is, for example: instead of saying ladder, he used his fingers to walk up the ladder and going, "doot, doot, doot, doot" with every step. He refused to try and say the word. So she told me what letters he should be able to say and he is more at a one year old level (sad huh). She then told me how to work with him to improve his speech. So far Iollan loves his homework and we do it 3 times a day. He is working on his, p, b, and m's. He can do p and b pretty good, but m is rather difficult for him. He says mommy really well, so I never really noticed it, but other words with m he has a hard time. But I am glad that I can work on it now and hopefully not go through the same thing we are with Ezzy.
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Our fat cat Elmo had to go into surgery a little while ago. He was acting strange and I thought that he had maybe gotten hurt somehow, so I called the vet and got an appointment for the following Monday (it was a Saturday and we were getting ready to go to Rigby to celebrate Easter with Chet's family). Well the more Chet and I looked at Elmo the more we realized that he was not doing good at all, so I called back and was able to take him in immediately. When they looked at him they figured out that he needed to have immediate surgery because his bladder was blocked. So we had to leave him there, I was rather sad to hear that. About two hours after we left, they called us to inform us that everything went well and that if we had not brought him in that day that he more and likely would have passed that weekend, he was a very sick kitty, they were amazed that he was still alive! Chet and I were both glad that we decided to take him in that day and not waited like we wanted to. He stayed at the vet from Saturday to Wednesday night and has been recovering really well, I am so happy! I love all my animals!
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Obviously we are still here in Pocatello. Chet applied to a job in Ashton, ID, that would be great to get, but we are not holding our breath this time. I think that we jumped the gun last time, but in all fairness, Chet's boss kind of got our hopes up high by saying very positive stuff, so that did not help us. lol
We have still been slowly packing though, we both feel like we will be moving sometime, just not sure when. So we will hopefully be prepared for it, I've had several friends that have had to move rather sudden, one friend had only a week to do so (now that's crazy)!
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My last post might have shown me to be rather bitter about my sister's news, but I am happy to say that I am doing better. I love my sister and am very happy for her, not only is she expecting a baby, but she is getting married to a wonderful man! I am just so happy for her!!!
Throughout this experience I have been able to grieve for my loss, I realized that I never really let myself do so. I pretty much knew that it was going to happen and then when it did, I kept myself busy, no time for grieving. I even pushed friends away and my husband. I could not and would not let my family see me cry for this baby I lost, I felt like I had to be strong for them and if I cried, I would some how be failing them. I'm not sure why I felt this way, but that's what I did, I kept it all inside. So when I found out about my sister being pregnant, I broke! I completely fell apart! I then turned rather ugly and hurt my sister, I didn't mean to, but I did. We are now on talking terms and I was able to visit with her today, I heard that she was going grocery shopping with my other sister and I told them to bring their kids here, so they did. It was nice to see her and be able to talk to her again, it may have only been for a few days, but it seemed forever to me.
I finally feel ok with things, so this experience, as bad as it was, was a blessing to me too. It helped me to heal more and grieve my loss, something I really needed to do.
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Well, that's our update for now. I really should be better about posting so that I don't have such long updates huh?? lol
Have a good one! :)
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A little while ago a had a teacher conference with Ezzy's teacher to find out that she was not doing too well in school and that she might have to repeat kindergarten. I don't have a problem with her repeating if necessary, but I have a HUGE problem with the school system. I guess that her teacher noticed that she was falling behind in December because of her speech problem. When she was tested with her speech, she passed, even though her teacher and I both agree that she needed the extra help. But since she passed the test she doesn't get any. So her speech problem has made her fall behind. Anyways, they noticed it in December like I said, but I didn't know about it till March, when we had our teacher conference! So I was really surprised to hear that she was so far behind that they are considering keeping her back. The first conference she was doing excellent and even ahead of her class, so I was very shocked by the news. If her speech was affecting her that much and for that long, why on earth did they not notify me so that I could do more with her??? Her teacher then told me that since there was only 2 months of school left that there wasn't enough time to correct it, that upset me even more! They have this program called, No Child Left Behind, what happened to Ezzy though? To me, she was left behind!
So I took Ezzy to dinner one night so that it was just the two of us and told her what was going on and that she might have to go to kindergarten again next year. Her response saddened me: "That's ok Mommy, the kids at school can't understand me and always say, what, huh, I can't understand you." Isn't that just so sad? I think so. She knows she has a problem and we have been working very hard since then. I also talked to my Aunt Marcia who is a speech therapist and she came to my house this last Monday to test Ezzy herself and see what I could do to help out more. Well before she showed up I did homework with Ezzy and she did amazing!!! I was so impressed with her! When Marcia did her test I told her the improvements I have seen in her and Marcia also noticed that Ezzy was aware of her mistakes and tried to correct herself, she was impressed with that cause I guess a lot of kindergartners do not do that. When she was done she told me what she felt she needed to work on and that she would bring homework for Ezzy to do at home. Ezzy has been making some improvements and I am very proud of her. I just also found out that the school cannot hold your child back if you do not want them too, so I am going to look into that. I really feel that she is capable of going into the first grade, especially now that we are both working on her problem and she is showing difinite improvement. If we continue during the summer time, then I am sure she will be mostly caught up, if not more.
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When my aunt was here to test Ezzy, I asked her to test Iolly too. He has a speech problem like Ezzy. I was hoping that since he spent more time with Cian that he would pick up Cians speech (Cian is very articulate and loves to use big words), but it did not happen. I have such a hard time understanding what Iolly is asking or saying and he gets really frustrated with that. So he has actually started to talk using his hands, kind of like sign language, but his own way. It's nice because I understand more of what he is wanting, but at the same time he isn't trying to talk and learn words, he is showing me. So that has really concerned me.
So when Marcia tested him, she could hardly understand a word he said and also noticed him using his hands to describe what the word is, for example: instead of saying ladder, he used his fingers to walk up the ladder and going, "doot, doot, doot, doot" with every step. He refused to try and say the word. So she told me what letters he should be able to say and he is more at a one year old level (sad huh). She then told me how to work with him to improve his speech. So far Iollan loves his homework and we do it 3 times a day. He is working on his, p, b, and m's. He can do p and b pretty good, but m is rather difficult for him. He says mommy really well, so I never really noticed it, but other words with m he has a hard time. But I am glad that I can work on it now and hopefully not go through the same thing we are with Ezzy.
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Our fat cat Elmo had to go into surgery a little while ago. He was acting strange and I thought that he had maybe gotten hurt somehow, so I called the vet and got an appointment for the following Monday (it was a Saturday and we were getting ready to go to Rigby to celebrate Easter with Chet's family). Well the more Chet and I looked at Elmo the more we realized that he was not doing good at all, so I called back and was able to take him in immediately. When they looked at him they figured out that he needed to have immediate surgery because his bladder was blocked. So we had to leave him there, I was rather sad to hear that. About two hours after we left, they called us to inform us that everything went well and that if we had not brought him in that day that he more and likely would have passed that weekend, he was a very sick kitty, they were amazed that he was still alive! Chet and I were both glad that we decided to take him in that day and not waited like we wanted to. He stayed at the vet from Saturday to Wednesday night and has been recovering really well, I am so happy! I love all my animals!
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Obviously we are still here in Pocatello. Chet applied to a job in Ashton, ID, that would be great to get, but we are not holding our breath this time. I think that we jumped the gun last time, but in all fairness, Chet's boss kind of got our hopes up high by saying very positive stuff, so that did not help us. lol
We have still been slowly packing though, we both feel like we will be moving sometime, just not sure when. So we will hopefully be prepared for it, I've had several friends that have had to move rather sudden, one friend had only a week to do so (now that's crazy)!
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My last post might have shown me to be rather bitter about my sister's news, but I am happy to say that I am doing better. I love my sister and am very happy for her, not only is she expecting a baby, but she is getting married to a wonderful man! I am just so happy for her!!!
Throughout this experience I have been able to grieve for my loss, I realized that I never really let myself do so. I pretty much knew that it was going to happen and then when it did, I kept myself busy, no time for grieving. I even pushed friends away and my husband. I could not and would not let my family see me cry for this baby I lost, I felt like I had to be strong for them and if I cried, I would some how be failing them. I'm not sure why I felt this way, but that's what I did, I kept it all inside. So when I found out about my sister being pregnant, I broke! I completely fell apart! I then turned rather ugly and hurt my sister, I didn't mean to, but I did. We are now on talking terms and I was able to visit with her today, I heard that she was going grocery shopping with my other sister and I told them to bring their kids here, so they did. It was nice to see her and be able to talk to her again, it may have only been for a few days, but it seemed forever to me.
I finally feel ok with things, so this experience, as bad as it was, was a blessing to me too. It helped me to heal more and grieve my loss, something I really needed to do.
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Well, that's our update for now. I really should be better about posting so that I don't have such long updates huh?? lol
Have a good one! :)
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Some news that turned me into a major wreck!
So I just found something out and I should be happy, but I'm not! I am so upset and angry that I am actually crying (bawling is more like it!). My little sister, who is not married and who has repeatedly said she does not want more kids, is pregnant. She just informed me via facebook and I could not respond back! It's not fair! Why her, why not me????
I do not wish any ill will towards my sister, I never would. I love my sister, I really do! I'm just frustrated because of my recent miscarriage and what I wanted so bad didn't. I am obviously still not over it, I still get quite angry at times....................
Ok, that was last night right after I found out. I'm not angry about it anymore. I'm a little frustrated and confused , mostly numb actually, but I'm not angry. I chatted via facebook with a good friend and they suggested that I pray for peace. This is one thing that I have not prayed for, I have prayed for acceptance and I know that I have, I have from the very start. But I am not at peace with it, not at all! So that is exactly what I have been doing. My hubby came home last night from doing homework to be with me and right as he walked in, my very good friend called and chatted with me about it. I felt bad, but it was really nice to talk to her. Kendra, thank you so much for calling me back! It was probably better that you called me back and that you didn't answer when I first called, I was a major wreck! You probably wouldn't have been able to understand me at all. I can't wait to see your family, hopefully next month! I'm sorry that I cannot invite you guys to my house anymore, but Tavin's health is more important to me. If we move closer to you guys (fingers crossed) then I will have to rethink my animals.
I have a question, is it selfish of me to request my sister to delete her post on my facebook wall or to delete it myself? She is receiving congrats from everyone else on it, and well, it hurts! That part still does, it's a little reminder of what happened. I don't want to to open up my facebook now because I know that it is there. But I'm not sure how to ask her if I do, I'm honestly thinking of calling my mom and asking her to talk to Erica, I really don't know if I can. I might break down again, just thinking of her makes me cry. I will get over this, I do know that, but I need some time here. I am still grieving, it's only been 2 months and 5 days.
I haven't blogged on here because I've been having some issues lately, lots of frustrations! I've been afraid that people won't like what I post if I let my true feelings out. I'm like that, always worried about what others think, so much that I bottle up and try to detach myself from the world. I wish to be away from everyone and everything, including my own family. But I know that I cannot survive that way, I NEED my family, I LOVE my family!!!
I know that Heavenly Fathers loves me, I do. I may not see what he has in store for me and I may not understand why, but I do know that he is with me always. I know that I have not suffered much like others have, but right now, this is what's hurting me, I'm still trying to heal and I know that the best way to heal is through Heavenly Father and my saviour, Jesus Christ. Through them I can make it through this, I just need to always remember that, that is the hard part. I forget at times and then I start to lose myself, but I am so grateful to have amazing family and friends to help remind me, thank you all so very much! I love each and everyone of you!!!
*** For those that are wondering, yes, we have looked into adoption, but WOW! Were we surprised at how expensive it is! I don't know how anyone affords it. Through this experience I can really feel in some degree the pain of those that cannot have children and try to adopt and find it so expensive that they start to lose hope of having any children at all, my heart goes out to them!
I do not wish any ill will towards my sister, I never would. I love my sister, I really do! I'm just frustrated because of my recent miscarriage and what I wanted so bad didn't. I am obviously still not over it, I still get quite angry at times....................
Ok, that was last night right after I found out. I'm not angry about it anymore. I'm a little frustrated and confused , mostly numb actually, but I'm not angry. I chatted via facebook with a good friend and they suggested that I pray for peace. This is one thing that I have not prayed for, I have prayed for acceptance and I know that I have, I have from the very start. But I am not at peace with it, not at all! So that is exactly what I have been doing. My hubby came home last night from doing homework to be with me and right as he walked in, my very good friend called and chatted with me about it. I felt bad, but it was really nice to talk to her. Kendra, thank you so much for calling me back! It was probably better that you called me back and that you didn't answer when I first called, I was a major wreck! You probably wouldn't have been able to understand me at all. I can't wait to see your family, hopefully next month! I'm sorry that I cannot invite you guys to my house anymore, but Tavin's health is more important to me. If we move closer to you guys (fingers crossed) then I will have to rethink my animals.
I have a question, is it selfish of me to request my sister to delete her post on my facebook wall or to delete it myself? She is receiving congrats from everyone else on it, and well, it hurts! That part still does, it's a little reminder of what happened. I don't want to to open up my facebook now because I know that it is there. But I'm not sure how to ask her if I do, I'm honestly thinking of calling my mom and asking her to talk to Erica, I really don't know if I can. I might break down again, just thinking of her makes me cry. I will get over this, I do know that, but I need some time here. I am still grieving, it's only been 2 months and 5 days.
I haven't blogged on here because I've been having some issues lately, lots of frustrations! I've been afraid that people won't like what I post if I let my true feelings out. I'm like that, always worried about what others think, so much that I bottle up and try to detach myself from the world. I wish to be away from everyone and everything, including my own family. But I know that I cannot survive that way, I NEED my family, I LOVE my family!!!
I know that Heavenly Fathers loves me, I do. I may not see what he has in store for me and I may not understand why, but I do know that he is with me always. I know that I have not suffered much like others have, but right now, this is what's hurting me, I'm still trying to heal and I know that the best way to heal is through Heavenly Father and my saviour, Jesus Christ. Through them I can make it through this, I just need to always remember that, that is the hard part. I forget at times and then I start to lose myself, but I am so grateful to have amazing family and friends to help remind me, thank you all so very much! I love each and everyone of you!!!
*** For those that are wondering, yes, we have looked into adoption, but WOW! Were we surprised at how expensive it is! I don't know how anyone affords it. Through this experience I can really feel in some degree the pain of those that cannot have children and try to adopt and find it so expensive that they start to lose hope of having any children at all, my heart goes out to them!
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